under the weather

i woke up feeling so low. i just feel something's missing.or someone perhaps.i just dont feel good about the set-up.i know something's wrong, well, it's been like that for quite some time now. not that i wont accept it, in fact i do, but i just let things be, being a complete coward. i cant even have the guts to tell him how i really feel (partly because of pride, and i may say something that would really hurt, even for his happy go lucky disposotion). aaaargh im at a lost for words. basta i feel really gloomy.

1) Starting time: 2:01 PM (EST), aug 10,2007
2) Your Name: Maria.Gracia M Panganiban
3) What are your nicknames: grace, gracie
4) School: St. Paul College Pque; UPLB
5) E-mail: grace_ganda@yahoo.com
6) Eyes: dark brown
7) Hair: black
8) Pets: dog sana pero wala
9) Siblings: a brother

~~**HAVE YOU EVER**~
10) Been so drunk you blacked out: lasing lagi pro i still know what im doing
11) Taken any illegal substances: never!
12) Gone out in public in your pajamas: yep.
13) Missed school b/c it was raining: oo naman.sarap tulog e hehehe
14) Set any body part on fire for amusement: again never
15) Ever kept a secret from someone: oo naman
16) Who knows your deepest secrets: many people, im a very open person
17) Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yeah. Never worked.
18) Cried during a movie: lage no, sa wowowee lang e maiiyak nako
19) Had a crush on a teacher: yup my prof in physics pero slight lang.
20) Ever thought an animated character was hot: yuck.
21) Ever at anytime owned New Kids on the Block stuff: No.
22) Planned your week based on the TV Guide: once lang!
23) Prank called someone: yeah, nonoy's idea. napagalitan ako ng mama ko kasi baka daw atakihin sa puso makasagot pag nalamang nanalo sila sa Lunch Date!

~~**FAVORITES**~~
25) Shampoo: right now im using VO5 pero no favorites
26) Soap: palmolive na may milk
27) Color: blue, pero im partial to black now kasi lumalaki nako
28) Day/Night: Night
29) Summer/Winter: summer of course
30) Online smile: Oh ayan! :-)
31) Lace or satin: lace...ask ash!
32) Cartoons/Anime: di masyado mahilig dun
33) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: nakakain ba un?
34) Like anyone: oo naman
35) Who have you known the longest of your friends: alice since 1st year HS; abby, tricia, rizza inna vanj, cecile (HS), noy, row,jin,pogi College na 15 years na din
36) Who is the shyest: None! hahaha
37) Who do you go to for advice: row, sining, jeff
38) Who do you get the most surveys from: eto kay jeff
39) Who do you cry with: row and the chefars;
~~**IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU**~~
40) Cried: almost.
41) Cut your hair: been almost a year
42) Exercised: ano yun?
43) Worn a skirt: lage
44) Been mean: ako pa???most of the time
45) Been sarcastic: minsan...hmmm
46) Met someone new: la pa
47) Talked to someone you have a crush on:naaah
48) Missed someone: hmmm yeah
49) Hugged someone: matagal ng wala
50) Fought with your parents: minsan kulit kasi e
51) Wished upon a star:a long time ago.
52) Laughed until you cried: oo naman.d other night lang, we were talking about our TL
53) Played Truth or Dare: nope
54) Watched a sunrise/sunset: nope.
55) Went to the beach at night:nope.
56) Spent quality time alone: yah sure. on my way home ive got ample time for that
57) Read a book for fun: yeah always
58) Ate a great meal: Always!
59) Are you lonely: silly but yeah iam.
60) Are you happy:contented
61) Are you talking to someone online: yup :)!

~~**DO YOU BELIEVE IN~~**
62) God/Devil: yah..
64) The Closet Monster: closet queens oo!!
65) The Big Bang Theory: havent pondered on that
66) Heaven/Underworld: sometimes.
67) Superstitions: Yup.
68) What's a name you'd rather be called: Anya,George.
69) Who named you: my lolo.
70) Backstreet Boys or NSync: hmmmm wala
71) When was the last time you showered: kagabi
72) What color pants do you have on right now:black pajama not jeans
73) What song are you listening to right now: wala
74) What was the last thing you said:paextend (im in a cafe)
75) What is right next to you: A PC
76) What is your computer desk made of: Wood with the partitions and all.
77) What is your phone number (optional): secret.
78) What was the last thing you ate: sinigang sa misa--tuna belly
79) Where do you want to go on your honeymoon: kahit sa CR pwede na yun o sa lababo
80) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: next question
81) How many buddies do you have on your PM list: i dunno
82) How's the weather right now: just about right.
83) Have you ever smoked pot: nope.
84) What did you do last night: sleep
85) What is the best thing you find about the opposite sex: thay make me feel special
86) How are you today: not good
87) How do you eat an Oreo: i dont like sweets
88) Who makes you happy: you know who
89) Fav cds: ala
90) Fav dream: the one where one of my ex crushes invited me to galera, i dunno why i felt so good after.
91) Have you ever won any special awards: yah. sa sports when i was in HS and college
92) What do you want to be when you grow up: I’m nung bata pako i want to be a pediatrician
93) End time: 2:31PM (EST)